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When you get caught in the rain

With nowhere to run

When you're distraught and in pain

Without anyone

We keep praying to saved

But nobody comes

And you feel so far away

That you just can't find your way home

You can get there alone

It's okay

What you say

I can make it through the rain

I can stand up once again

On my own and I know

That I'm strong enough to mend

And every time I feel afraid

I hold tighter to my faith

And I live one more day

And I make it through the rain

And if you keep falling down

Don't you dare give in

You will arise safe and sound

So keep pressing on step fastly

And you'll find what you need

To prepare

What you say...

And when the wind moves

And shadows grow close

Don't be afraid

There's nothing you can't face

And sure they tell you

You'll never pull through

Don't hesitate

Stay calm and sane

dYna : i will make it through...

life is like THAT!

Some say, life is like a wheel. sometimes, u'll be on top. and some other times, u're at the bottom. if that is how u wanna view life, then mine will be rock-bottom! really, that will be the honest truth. for the past coupla-months, i have been so interrupted. physically, mentally, emotionally, socially, even, financially. to have to admit these, takes a lot of courage in me. but here i am, writing it down. because i hate the facts that people think i'm perfect. problem-free, optimist, all-that. well, i am not. even more, far from it. we all have our time. i certainly have mine. it is just how u deal with it.

As much as i want to reveal the horror that i have just gone through, part of me still want it to be sealed. but my point is, whatever difficulties lies on ur door, believe me, it comes with the solutions. we sometimes are so concern about the hurt and pain that we're going thru, we tend to overlook the outcome. someone once told me to tell myself, each and everyday, that "things will get better". guess what? it does...

And despite it all, u become stonger that u're before. few more lessons in life u have learned. few more tears u have shed. few more experiences left to be told. and u know u have become a better person.

And when u have gone thru such a tough time, u count the blessing that u have, the people around u. i owe my deepest gratitude to these few:

My Mr.HantuAyam : for catching my back, for not letting me fall. for the support, for the love, for the care. for wiping the tears away, for the shoulder to cry own.tq dear, for always, always been there.

My Bro Z : where would i be without u? *hugs*

Eve : for having the faith in me. guess u just did it again.

Mama : for everything.


dYna : and myself, for hang-in there...

and there's another...

Congrats to my dear couz, Hery and his fiance.

dYna : nope, no 'gadoh'-lar this time. hehe ;p

Wedding (s) ;p

My paksu and couz, Shaiful is getting married. They are my sedara from mama's side. Paksu is her youngest brother, and Shaiful is her sister's first son. They made the wedding serentak, on the same day. I have always been close to my paksu. Thou the wedding is held at the kampung, paksu wanted me to make the hantaran for him. And my Mak Long (shaiful's mother) want to tumpang sekaki.

Initially, it was only 7 bekas for each. But when i went back few days before the wedding to get the barang for the hantaran, it has double up to 13 bekas each, leaving me to finish up 26 bekas in 3 days. And since i have plan to go to Kuala Kangsar (KK) the next day, i am left with only 2 days! But hey, i'll take the challenge. Bring it on...! hahaha...but seriously, if u're doing something from the heart, something u purely have interest in, and really passionate about, u will make it thru. With flying colors.

I came back to KL and straight away went shopping for the stuff and stay up all night til dawn to finish the 1st half of the hantaran. Went to KK the next day. And for the next 18 hours, i did nothing but just that. Result : amazing. Hehe.

We drove back to kg mama at 3am in the morning. Her place is in Kedah. Well, not exactly, it is more of a sempadan of Perak, Kedah and Penang. And her kampung itself is so kampung, that u hardly have any phone coverage there except for celcom. Back to the wedding. Saturday was the reception for the bride side, for both. Between 12noon to 2pm, we manage to went to both side of the reception. We went to Paksu's first, (oh, btw the hantaran for both sides end up to be 17 bekas each!! Kg style-lar where people give barang last minutes. Errgh!) then Shaiful's. More meriah on his side since the wife is the only girl in her family. On sunday, was the reception for our side. It went on pretty well. Despite the heat (panaaaaas sgt!!) i really like the way they organize the whole thing. It was lovely. It seems rather peaceful to have weddings on mama's side rather than baba's side.

And next week, my other couz, from baba's side is getting engage. Let see how they manage it this time.

dYna : i bet RM 100 they will 'gaduh' punya...hahaha!!

happy feet ;-)

Mungkin aku pernah juga merasakan cinta

Tapi tak pernah seindah ini

Mungkin aku juga pernah merasakan rindu

Tapi tak pernah sedalam ini

Mungkin kamu takkan pernah percaya

Bahwa sesungguhnya

Aku telah terjatuh

Kuakui aku telah jatuh

Larut ke dalam

Kamu yang ku cintai

dYna : sank ;p

Back to Skool ;p

Due to the celebration of our monthi-versary, my bf and i took a day trip back to his place, Kuala Kangsar.

He was what they call 'budak koleq'. I know that SBP people always have this thing about their school, some sort of mutual bond if u happened to meet a person from the same skool, but MCKK do earns a certain degree of respect in the society. And i just dont understand why. Which i think has lead my bf to bring me there so i can witness it with my own two eyes. We have been planning this for months, but the timing was never right. Even on the day we went, i was pretty exhausted since i stay up all night doing my paksu's hantaran (ref : Wedding (s) post). But since we have purchased the tickets, and this is something that i really want to do, so we go ahead with the plan. Besides, what is the best way of picking up the years that i have missed out from my bf's childhood then going back to the town where he had spent crucial part of his life. If it means so much to him, then yeah, i cant wait.

We took a morning bus from Hentian Duta. I was too tired to drive, and most prob he wont allowed me to. But the thing is i hate it when he is driving, especially long distance. It will defect the whole purpose of the trip. So, i was the one suggested we take the bus. Being me, i did part of my hantaran work on the bus. (hey, it was a 3 and 1/2 hour journey kay, i can talk and still do something else ;p).

We reached there exactly noon. And the town is so small, everything is on a walking distance. Just the sun-lah was killing us. My bf was sweating like a pig. Panas gilos!! hehe. The school is so beautiful, so magnificient. The exact phrase i would use is 'tersergam indah'. From the distance, even up close. I can feel the vibe even though the school is empty. And my bf, practically cant stop talking about it all way. He was more than happy to take me touring around the school. Like "this is where we have this and that...and this and that...". He even show me the longkang where his friend jatuh. Haha.

i really dunno how to put it in writing of how to describe the whole trip. But i think no body can put it better than the way he did. So, here it goes, the rest of the journey : Day Trip to Kuala Kangsar .

It was a very very tiring journey. Especially to walk around the town when u have not been sleeping for the past 24 hrs. i slept all the way back. But the look on his face throughout the day, the people he met, the places he went back to, the nasi kandar he had for lunch, the taste of his so-called-bestest-cendol, the smile of his satisfaction, that was priceless....


dYna : and the bond get stronger each day

"pajol kompol a ramey-ramey..." ;p

*if u're able to understand the title of my post, i would say : "wa caya sama lu beb!" ;p*

well, here it goes, as i have promise u, a good post ;)

i just came back from a trip to Beijing. This is my second overseas trip. At my age, i would have dreamed for such opportunity, yet, it came true. And as usual, it was a blast. So much fun. So much joy. I cant believe i have set foot at the Great Wall. (thou i didnt make my way to the top, as the saying goes, it's for dummies, haha!). Being with amazing people (this time included my parents : aint that suppose to be the minus point? ;p), acquiring amazing tips, it's no wonder people said 'jauh berjalan, luas pengalaman'. U really learned a lot about other people's culture and lifestyle, which lead u (well, at least me) to appreciate your own. But the best part would be....shopping-lar!!! we have like 3 shopping sessions kot, but believe it or not i have only been to 3 (or maybe 4) shops. Like one at each stop. We pick a good shop (so-called lar) and sat there, bargaining for like 2 and 1/2 hours! but i tell u, it was worth it-lar!!! sooooo unlike me! but truly, such an experience to go thru.

the food was good (eatable lar compare to the korean ;p). i have put on 2 kilos when i get back, damn! the people were very much friendly thou we didnt communicate well (u know, like ayam cakap sama itik...yet, they're friend what, like that lar, hehe!). the wheather was cold, that u started getting lots of 'frost-bite'. (paper-cut-like but from the cold. i dunno what u call it, but i'm calling it that ;p).
i enjoyed the trip very much: from the stay to the hotel, food, shopping, to the open toilet ;p
i love the amazing people i met during the trip: from andyka to fifi to tina and the singaporeans.
looking forward for the next trip. scheduled to be in korea (again!). this time it's summer.


All in all, there's no place like my own-lar ;)

dYna : the pics will be loaded later. thanks to my bf sebab belum bagi the camera's cabel. so cannot transfer pic yet-lor...hehe ;p