Lagu Rindu

Bintang malam katakan (sampaikan) padanya
Aku ingin melukis sinarmu di hatinya
Embun pagi katakan padanya
Biar ku dekap erat waktu dingin membelenggunya

Tahukah engkau wahai langit
Aku ingin bertemu membelai wajahnya
Kan ku pasang hiasan angkasa yang terindah
Hanya untuk dirinya
Lagu rindu ini kuciptakan
Hanya untuk bidadari hatiku tercinta
Walau hanya nada sederhana
Ijinkan ku ungkap segenap rasa dan kerinduan

I have just realized how I have wasted almost 3 years of my time neglecting a huge part of me.

dYna: and this song bring tears to my heart :-(

When Tsunami Hit

“Sometimes God breaks our spirit to save our Soul

He breaks our heart to make us whole

He sends us pain so we can be stronger

He sends us failure so we can be humble

Sometimes he takes something away from us so we can learn the value of everything”

*big-bro*

dYna: well said

Trust NO-ONE!

If I were to write these 3 weeks ago it would have become a very nasty post. I may have written it out of anger and disappointment. Not that I am not disappointed now but I think I have began to accept it. This is nothing new. Especially if it happened to me. I cannot recall how many god-damn-times I have told myself to be god-damn careful but yet again, it still happened.

Okay, here it goes, I have successfully added another name in my book of betrayal. It is so pathetic that I have to keep a book to remind me of how many times I have been stabbed but somehow I don’t seem to learn from my past experience. How stupid and naïve can I be? How much longer should I stay this way?

I am so mad at myself for not seeing it coming. I feel so so stupid for having to go through this, again! I swear I was so shock to discover this person true-self that I have become completely speechless. I have chosen to keep the whole truth to myself because I find it so ridiculous to even defend it. I just shut up and listen. I am so sick and tired of being close to someone just to find out that this sort of things will eventually happen.

I am 26year old for God sake! These are the kind of things that you would go through in high school. But some people just don’t grow up. It breaks my heart to lose a person who used to be very close to me. There are certain kind of friendship where you will have argument and little fights in between. But when you have come to your senses, you will kiss & made out and move on.

Well, you normally do that when the friendship is worth keeping.

Not for this one though. The damage has been done and it was unacceptable. The kind that you can’t just forgive and forget.

dYna: Here we go again….sigh!